A Different Point of View

It is funny when life comes at you without notice. Things that you'd never expect to happen can happen at anytime. Just recently, I was unable to keep the calm and cheery front that I normally have in front of others. Something was eating away at me on the inside... and I was letting it get to me. I wanted solitude but it wasn't the best course of action.

After some convincing from them and some blind courage of lemonade... I brought myself to sit down and talk about things. Being as vulnerable as I was in this situation, I found relief. They were willing to forgo games to ensure that I was alright. They were pretty supportive and told me that a lot of things I've done were courageous and admirable. It was very admirable that I'd show my vulnerable side to people... as it is something people rarely do. It also meant that I treated them as friends, showing them a side that would not normally surface.

I do admit that I was very afraid to sit and talk. I have never had friends talk to me when I was stressed out... face to face. This was something new to me... and something I don't find bad at all... I know I can't depend on them to figure out these problems... as they are problems of my own. And it is all up to me to solve. But I do confide in the fact that they were there when I needed someone to talk to.

I have only known them for a short amount of time... but somehow... I do find that I can trust them in a sense. Maybe I will continue to show my vulnerable side more often when the time comes again. Although some of them claimed they cannot be fully trustworthy... I think they are more trustworthy than they think.

The most eye opening thing that night... was when I was apologizing for ruining the night... since they couldn't play games. One of them turned to me and said... "If you were me, what would you have done?" He was right... I would've done the same thing that they did for me... making sure that I was okay. Sometimes... thinking about things from a different view... can completely change your thoughts about the situation.

I thank them all for that evening. I don't know if they will think less of me as I showed them my vulnerable side... but one thing I do know for sure... I have made some really good friends.